Never Let Them See You Sweat (Do It All Shame)

Cartoon mom with cape

This week I am trying out a new routine: Every morning watching a TED talk to start my day. It’s been a good way to get me interested in a particular thought or personal challenge before I start the hours of chores, kid games, and nap time struggles.

On Monday, I watched Brene Brown’s Listening to Shame.  Brown is, first off, AMAZING. Continue reading

So, I’m Turning 30 Soon

That moment you realize you're one month away from turning 30

It’s hit me in a weird way. For some reason it had made me feel less inhibited. Basically in a “screw it, I am turning 30, why wait?” type of way.

Maybe it’s just a 1/3rd life crisis…I doubt it though. I’m kind of psyched about the whole thing.

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Snacks Make Life Better

Little Lady and me sticking our tounges out and Little Boy looking bored


Being mature with my daughter at the doctors office, as always. My son just putting up with us, as always.

I’m stealing away some time to write this. Today is Little Boy’s PH test, which means a feeding tube like thing down his nose and into his esophagus for 24-hours. As you can imagine my toddler is thrilled as can be at this development.

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Comforting Things Christians Say To Other Christians That Aren’t Actually Comforting

Small yellow church

I’ve spent the last almost two years holding my son’s hand while he fights cancer. We were solid church-goers before, and our faith has only strengthened. The problem is that a lot of people don’t know what to say, even Christians, so they end up saying some pretty awful things. They don’t mean to. Everyone means well, but a child with cancer… sometimes the right words aren’t always at the tip of our tongue. Some are especially bad but most are just misguided. Here are some of the more misguided ones I receive regularly from well-meaning fellow Christians, that honestly make me cringe every time I share tough news because I know it’s coming.

What’s said: “God has a plan.” This is usually accompanying any of the really, really bad news. The thing is, the whole “God has a plan” thing isn’t helpful… at all. It’s supposed to be a comfort. Typically though, when it’s said, it isn’t. It’s helpful when asking “why is this happening?” It is not helpful when someone is expressing sadness over the pain their child is going through.

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It’s 2:36 AM.

sleepy chibi jen
I have binged on chocolate.

I have emptied my junk folder carefully (I have a set the highest spam filter on my blog email that catches everything, even normal emails, thanks to some spammers list I got on).

I have read a couple of Buzzfeed posts.

But most of all, I archived all my cancer support group pages (archiving is when you are still apart of the group but don’t see it in your feed), and even turned off following one of my favorite cancer organizations. And I’m actually proud of myself for doing it.

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